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Natural History  


Rabbits and cochineal have changed

the course of history. Drones die

immediately after mating. If you can

be trusted with very little, you can be

trusted. We’re clay and seawater.

Credit cards describe the golden

ratio. Any two-foot circle of earth

holds enough organisms to make

into ink. Many mothers leave their

children. Nothing’s inconceivable.

Aunt You

All those emails serve up men, men, men, men, men,

all claiming to be my second and third cousins, like a twisted dating

site: male relatives I never met sliding into my DMs. Where are the women?


Why can they not find me? Am I the only woman who spat into a tube

because I can’t touch the kinship cup, can’t feel our entanglements undulating,

see myself in a warped glass in the cabinet of immortals, just me dumbly


gathering feathers from the backyard, a jay bluing the mix.

Faceless Ancestor, I was taught to walk away, to not know and be

as fed as anyone who has never seen a full plate of greens or grains,


so I can’t call you Grandmother in any language, and it hurts to not

have a girl gang of aunties built into my DNA. I forgot the mother because

I was told to, became someone else’s good daughter with bad lungs,


finding birch bark long enough to write on, a deer bone,

a bird’s beard and the skeleton hand of Rose of Sharon, my hair

studded with water bubbles. I never forgot the mother,


I knew what she liked: wood for the fire, tea after supper, tic-tac-toe,

a grocery list. I learned to wait. Aunt You, can you see me when I throw

my voice into elms in the summer dark when the aurora reaches down


to the prairies and sends crackling ribbons of light back through the years

I cannot count? See me in the scholar’s robes I earned because I was judged

to belong. See me searching for poplars, for yarrow and chives and rhubarb.


Hear me humming the song I honed to a science

to seed the clouds and rise up like rain.

All I wanted, Aunt You, all.


Adoption Reel


Make yourself uncomfortable.

Surprise is the new listening.


I was born then whirled away,   

the offspring to be named later.


The quaver broke like a porcelain

cup. A crow posed on a BFI bin,


tinfoil in her beak, and shook

his shiny head. I slipped from hand


to hand like a baby made of soap.

Enough, then. Start again. Accent


on first and third beats. I left

in a hurricane and crossed


the bridge over the fault line.

I came back to you this April


carrying antlers of pussy

willows that show their teeth,


wearing a yarrow crown.

Make yourself tall in my arms.


Mother, not mother,

dancing is the new speaking.


Tanis MacDonald (she/her) lives in southwestern Ontario, but is originally from the Canadian prairies.  She teaches at Wilfrid Laurier University and is the author of Straggle: Adventures in Walking While Female and Mobile: poems. Recent work has appeared in Contemporary Verse 2, Grain, Event, and Atlantis.

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